My smile no longer belongs to you
My tears will no longer fall for you
If I smile, I smile for myself
If I cry, I cry for myself
Once this heart used to beat for you
Now it is mine and can’t beat for you
You can believe all you want to believe
Ignore my tears and pain it bears
Without looking inside my heart
How much it hurts and for whom it hurts
This world can hurt me and hate me;
Malign me and make me miserable;
Drive me to madness and poison all around
I will survive, if I have the wish to survive
Or I may be, decide it is enough
And enjoy the ride to another place
I can’t promise you sun, moon and stars
But I promise to be there beside you
When the sun rises and descends
When moon and stars come out to revel
When darkness spreads and you cant see
When your smile turns to sighs
May be that’s all I can promise
‘Cause I have got only me to share with you
To hold your hand and fight your demons
To be the wind to blow the clouds away
To be the candle to show your way
To be with you till time ends…
Sometimes I wish simple things
Like tearing away these masks
Which I wear so freely these days
To hide those tears and distress
Who are my constant companions,
Following me like my own shadow!
Can I just be myself for once?
Without needing to hide behind
The fixed smile which comes
And always available on standby?
Can I cry my heart out for once
Without feeling guilty about it,
Till all my tears are drained out
Along with all the heartaches?
Can I be that girl for once
Who beams her sunshine smile
To the world around
Just because she is glad today?
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/sometimes-i-wish-7/
